after much consideration, i will not be haolian-ing,whining, ranting at this space anymore.

i was being reprimanded.

too busy, really damn busy.

too many KPO People around -->> hey, look here !!!! YES I AM A BIMBO + BITCH. does that make you look an angel ?

stop disturbing me !

it's really amazing to see what people reckon as a perfect couple, to break up.
you get all sorts of comments, or "likes" in fb social networking.

i can see how many friends get too excited, when i break up with anybody.
they rather me to be single- actually i was thinking is it that too hard to do that ?

im just too lazy to do anything abt it now.

18 amazing facts about me.

1. i don't know for nuts reason, i am so in love with Elvin Ng and i will definitely dump anyone for him.

2. i like to peel my fingers nails (i don't chew them though) , SAVE ON MEDICURE, BITACH.

3. My favourite colour is red, and i have tons of clothes and shoes of red.

4. I am known THE INTERNET, cos i know everything that is gossipy and all the cheap deals you can ever find, in another words, I AM A STALKER.

5. i chewed and chew on pacific clams almost every night.

6. I love animals but not pets

7. i can play almost every musical instruments with a liberal knowledge

8. I'm pretty good at analysing people, so far, never fail.

9. not trying to act ang mo, but i seriously cannot read or write chinese.

10. Green tea is like a mundane thing in the morning.

11. I may looked ditzy, but actually i'm quite alert at times (least i think i am)

12. I seriously don't care about how see me (except for my mum), i smoke, do or say anything i like, SERIOUSLY, IT'S MY LIFE RIGHT !!!

13. My highest cum record was like 17 times, geee.

14. I forgive very fast, but I CAN NEVER FORGET.

15. i can raise my both legs over my head, up-straight and curl it over my neck.

16. i have 60 over pairs of shoes of which i have not wear 10 over pairs of them; of which i had thrown 20 over pairs of shoes?, excluding my 20 over pairs of slippers, i seriously CANNOT RESIST SHOES.

17. if i say i don't mind, i actually do.

18. if i had to have kids, IT MUST BE A BOY.

2 interesting stuff i have heard.

1. there is a 4D tv, better than 3D. i was like, is there a 4D tv ???

yah, when you turn your tv to teletext channel, which u can see 4D results.

REALLY LMAO.

2. i asked, should i go and cut my one eye to double eye lid ?

the answer from the person was "no. cos i hate artificial stuff"

(in my heart) yah right, if the boobs is as big as watermelon, see if you like artificial stuff or not.

it's really entertaining to meet up with the group of peeps.

unknowingly, i reached at almost 2am again.

next time when i meet them, i must stock up bird nest cos, i got to wake up early the next morning.

and of cos, yet again, i was late for work today.

anyway, i was like *roll my eyes, when Hong lee dun allow me to go aussie backpack with them. cos they denote that i will circle HOSPITAL on the map instead of point of interest. they were talking and talking and talking abt the trip, EVERYTHING EXCLUDE ME.

and afterall it is a small world. the guy that laiping talk abt in talking cheap air tix, happens to be my primary school classmate. hahahahhaha.

so, we have two pending trip- a diving trip which i think i suppose to organise.

and another aussie trip which majority agreed to exclude me!!!!! actually tot of it, its also quite troublesome. unless yiting is going along.

alright, i need to plan new meeting point cos, all of them complain we always go to the same place.

and i can't wait for friday to come to meet the girls.

now that i cannot sleep at this hour, most prob i got the booster from the migraine pills i took.

I've shifted home, because he said he need some personal space.

which we took this as a sort of cooling down period, actually what he said was quite true. i've been staying in his house for so long that i've become much of a bummer.

things changed so much, the salon closed down, lift grading is alr done.

it's just struck me that what have i achieved do far ?

though, i would miss the days where i just laze at home, waiting for him to come home to buy me my dinner, but i guess i had wasted much of my 3 years putting someone else as priority.

there is so much things that i want to do.

i want to complete my studies, before i really decide what i want to major in. b once said, taking maketing is the best choice, actually now that i would think for myself, that might not be what i really want.

i need to take my license, which i could done it earlier if i did not bum too much.

i want to continue my diving, which he doesn't allow me to.

i want to advance my PPDCL which he didn't allow me to.

i need to hit the numbers in the bank account

i want to do a comestic surgery on my eyes

i want to swim everyday

it's never too late to start thinking what i really want in my life.

my life is pretty much more organise. and i tell myself, i will achieve everything that i mentioned within this year.

and perhaps, i will do a change on my character on being honest.

thank you for asking me to go home, what you said was true. it is only in this way that i could actually know what i want. it is true that you are doing this for my own good, and as well as our good. i am really glad you are actually thinking as a future.

ps:// HL, i didn't block you, i was like tempo shut down the blog cos i want to organise the photos of HK trip. u really damn mountain turtle. lol.

on a thursday, went to meet hl,pq and lp for steamboat, and a rare guest came along. our long lost friend- cum my ex-beancurd lover, CHONG HONG.

after dinner, tossed a coin and off we went to west coast park for chit chat till 2 am !!

before that, they were saying that i will confirm play at the play ground, in the end, all of them climb this stupid thing (see picture below) and i was like complaining - wao rao eh, so much sands!!! it was really a nice catch up session. it brings back so many memories.

all thanks to CHONG HONG !!! keep telling me the things we did in the past. beancurd, BGNP,

taekwondo, and he actually can remembered about so many others things , like we quarreled about me being a christian, he picked me up from church and macdonalds with my sibs.

it really bring back some smile to me. anyway, i wish him all the best with his current gf, and stop changing gf. AHAHAHAH.

friday night- went to meet the girls for dinner and one altitude. one altitude was so freaking hot then we left after a beer. and we decided to buy drinks and sit by the river. saw this vending machine, BUT we got not enuff coins. and i saw this guy, i asked him for coins, he passed me $2 plus and ran off. i was like, do i look like a beggar. ahahaha. ok, thanks to that kind person !!!

i've heard a mill that people commented on my temper. they couldn't understand how understanding i can be. how can i bear to allow my bf flirting around with others.

for a matter a fact, actually i really can. cos, i know humans all like new things. to girls, is bags or shoes and clothes. but for men, is either cars or women. so,why not, as long as there is no feeling attached.

But, i am sad to say that this is really beyond my tolerance level.

i am not pissed at the flirting part.

but excuses me, i am sleeping with you, and your girls call you in the middle of night at 3 am ? or either at 7 am ? i know these people no need to work, but sad to say my mother don't owe a bank and you are literally not feeding me, i HAVE TO WORK!!!

and being a light sleeper, i always wake up just because all your fling call you one by one ? can you kindly ask them to fcuking get a life ?

he could actually argued with me that my phone is also always ringing.

isn't this so contradicting ? once he scolded me off, because i didn't pick up his call. this is basically because, my phone is on SILENT WITHOUT VIBRATION !!!! so on which rule you want to defend at ?

when enough is enough.

he didn't even think that it's any of his fault at all.

he thinks that i am throwing my temper.

if you like to talk on the phone so much with either your guys' friend, your boss, or your girls.... why dun u call all of them out and sit down tgt and talk as much as you can. maybe you all can talk for 10 years.

i am like staying with him and he preferred to talk on the phone. then might as well ask all of them to stay at your house, then you can save on the phone bills.

The most pissed of thing is that, he can talk to this particular person, when we are outside, he can talk from we start eating till we ended our dinner. so ? might as well you eat with your phone ?

i cannot imagined that i am soo pissed off that, i have already packed everything. i am going hk on mon, and i will prob will never return.

i have done already so much for this person. he doesn't even know where he keep his own stuff. but forget it. he can never learn to appreciate all this.

though, i admit, another person had already caught my attention. but either me or him had initiated anything at all.

anyway, i promise this time it will a mutual and peaceful break-up.

ok, on a brighter side, i signed up for volunteer service at singapore prison force, and glad to know via email today, that i can actually start my volunteer job in a mth time. basically, i will be giving them some encouragement and tuition.

if only, everything could be like...

i found back that heart beating sensation.

butterflies in the tummy

everytime i think of those memory, i would just smile.

but... still, when things had already changed, we cannot do anything about it.

while escaping from lecture notes again......

recollective memory capture my mind.

at one of the genting trip....

*dialing on the phone

pulse tone, me: hello, hello, oh, hi, is this the duty manager ?

unexpected voice: yes?

me: * with a typical singaporean complaining tone, i called the housekeeping so many times, but they are not up yet to clean the room.

unexpected voice: yah, because the duty manager is busy in the toilet shitting.

me: *in a world of ???. pause for a while. AND LAUGHED NON-STOP !!!!!

I didn't know there is a phone in the toilet. and the person who actually pick up the phone and pose as the "duty manager" is actually my bf himself.

you know how hilarious it gets.

anyway, 4 chapters of econs to go. better than last semester when i really studied last min. started at 12am before my papers.

when i thought law is a bitch, econs is the king of all bitches.

all the best and hopefully i will be done with bitch.

all in a iphone shell

i am in the midst of preparing for my final paper, well, i am just letting the study mode to sip in. how encouraging is that, b is snoring away right beside me.

all in the iphone's

i was taking a nap today and a package arrived.

alrighthy, all the ipad and iphone's cases.

well i was like choosing iphone's case and this intruder, none other than my dearest bf, snatched away the wireless mouse and chase me away so that he can choose the ipad's cases. AND he used up my $8 ++ worth of credit in my account. but in the end, he passed me $100 for $54 USD worth of goods. *wink.. pls snatch away the mouse more. lol

ralph lauren order from USA. all kids size cos adult size is too big for my petite body.

baby order a japan polo tee which all proceeds are donate to JAPAN. i think he shld do charity more often cos......... u know he need to redeem himself.

oh ya, a huge problem that occurred. i keyed in a wrong order, and i got a bad day from him. but well, all is over.

sunset or rise, i dun remember at genting

on the way to genting when heavy rain came down.

this is funny !!!!! the sign reads, NO SLEEPING HERE, THANK YOU. i saw tis from far apart and i couldn't take a good picture of it. so my dearest ACTUALLY suggested that we sit closer, closer as in, really next to him. and they were like nagging and saying, no wonder got all these people(referring to me) in stomp. <--- some website where netizens posts nonsense.

i was in a wedding mood. so i watch thru three videos.

sweet.

me: marry me, marry me, marry me. i dun want to study anymore. pls pls pls.

kel: silence with giggle

**watching ROBIN HOOD on tv while escaping from studies.

me: next time i want to name my child MARYANN (the name of the female actress in the robin hood), so nice.

kel : *a face full of confidence, i will name my child KELS ROMEO WONG.

me: ok, fine, i go study, i dun want to marry you anymore.

Who on earth name their child romeo ?

i get the idea, you want ur child to be a lover of all holes ( you know which hole lah)

but why can't you name after like TIGER WOODS or JACK NEO, cos you know why, if you catch up with entertainment news.

going HK on the 13th and i can't wait for exams to end.

oh, kel is not going with me, i can sense that june 13 till i am back will be the days of sluts. ahahhahah.

things i've done this week.

1. meet hl,pq and lp for dinner and gossips alllllll the wayyyyy tilll 12 plus ?

2. meet diana, jess and denise for dinner and drinks, where baby and friends drop by.

3. studying and still studying. SIM, pls just let me go and graduate. i dun want to stay another longer ok. pls....

no pictures for this post.
no random writing cos, i am back home using my sister's lousy computer. and all the pics are at my com.
i just want to spout.


i pondered for very long if i should continue blogging nonsense. cos i have realised that fb is a killer and hence this lead me to think that blogging is also a killer.

for god know when, my friend, quarrelled with me for god know reason too.
seriously, i don't like to bring out whatever stuff that i've done for him or whatever stuff that he has done for me cos, i don't execpt anything in return right ?

few days after that he sms me and tell me i would say a form of repantance.
i seriously don't understand. what i've done wrong to him ?
firstly, he kept a utmost secret for his friend back then, on a issue of my bf and my bestfriend.
and then he called me to ask me to plead for a peace treaty between him and my bf, who then his so called bestfriend that he kept secret for didn't do a single thing ?

and then, when all the friends who did not wanted to accept his gf , i arranged a outing with all the friends so that they could understand the situation he is in stuck btw friends and his gf.

well, i wouldn't say he didnt did much for me. least he was there when i was down.
but why ? you want to boost your ego on all the expensive meal that you've eaten, paid by ur gf.
i am not saying that, this wrong, you could enjoy ur precious moment between you and ur gf and not saying things like... you shld tried this or that.

or when i asked you have you eaten, you could have replied, yes i did............ not adding on to i've eaten at Sattle club. wth !!!!!

GET WHAT I MEAN ? it's really irritating.




and then next come, my heartbreaking issue with my sister. (cousin).
i dun know what to say cos, i have said sorry, and she said no need to say sorry since i mean it as a joke. so what should i do ? bleed my self to show sincerity ?

i didn't either want to mention what we have done foe each other. because i know, she had done more for me. but i think we shouldn't look things at the surface. when i had left that little money on the the bank book, i still wanted to buy her bday pressie.

i tried all my best to surprise her on all her birthday.
but of cos, vice versa.

and then she said that i wanted sympathy. i didn't want any of those !!!

all my intention was to make her happy and surprised.


so as per advise, when the matter cools off we shall see.
prolly this has make me sleepless nights, but i am all well now.
and this had also teach me a lessson on watching what i've said or posted.

but, on a side note. i am like that. i dun know my limits to jokes.
so if you are friend of mine, you all should know how "funny" i can go.

alright, i am finally free to blog. i procrastinate my assignment.

Day 2 - My first Love.

i flipped and found lotsa of long time ago pictures to dig up my memory.

My first ONE-SIDED love will be in primary school. yah, i am bit too early for all these nonsense.

as i was saying, it was one-sided, so of cos, i hate that guy so much that i actually use marker to erase him. ahahahaha, very very childish, i know. but anyway, who cares ?

My first Love, could be my classmate from secondary school. actually i don't really understand if we were really in love. i just now that it was sweet. all puppy love are sweet.

what i can recall about my first love ?

- we always play playstation tgt, and i still remember it was bobble puzzle

- we always got tease, because we are in the same class.

well, that's all, not really much cos it was soooooo long ago. and i always got short term memory.

i've been very lazy recently. i just want to nua on the bed and do nothing. seriously.

we went genting last week again, with shuana and her bf, nelson.

b agree to buy a chanel bag for me, but actually now i am thinking, i don't want it anymore. i know its funny, but forget it.

i am waiting for diana tan to come back from bkk.

30 days of blogging.

garnered ideas from a friend's blog on what to compose

so i am going to post 30 days straight of blogging. (hmmm... can minus away public holidays ?) ahahahaha.

DAY 1 - PRESENTATION OF MYSELF.

This is how currently how i look like.

due to lighting and the good photographer, i look little prettier in actual fact, not so chio.

Name: YEO WANLING, CINDY (DUN ASK ME TO TYPE CHINESE, i went for interview and i need to take out NRIC to see how my chinese characters look like.)

Age : 24

Date of birth : 12 Nov 1987, but to me, everyday is my birthday, presents are all welcome, cash is the best. thank you.

nationality: red dot-rean.

martial status: SINGLE FOREVER, unless have a inheritance of billions.

extrovert- when you talk to me about anything except personal. VERY vulgar person.

introvert- many people had told me, its hard to get into my heart to heart talk. i usually listen, i dun talk about myself.

studying in SIM. REPEATING my last semester with only ONE MODULE !!!

studied in lasalle, but decided if i continue i will be a beggar.

alright, a short one cos i seen the rest of the topics, are going to be more in depth.

i wanted to change my passport photo, they asked me to bring birth cert and NRIC. and i told them, my birth cert and NRIC name is different. now they tell me i have to either change birthcert or NRIC in order to change my passport. how could they make such mistake in the first place. KNNBCCB.

my im-promp-tu and near death genting trip.

it was friday night last week. it was a long weekend due to good friday.

baby was nice to call me on my phone to ask me out for a movie.

so i reached home after having tuition and the show start at nine plus. and we had this super super sick idea of going to genting. so we asked one of his friend to tag along, if we decide to really be so ballsy.

after we watched the chinese ghost story, his friend, also another crazy one, called and asked if genting is still on ? so, hell yeah.

his friend came over to our place and we have to settle on the lodging. but all the hotels were fully booked !!! so i called agoda.com, my trusty vacation website, and they asked us to try dunno which hotel lah. we booked that and it cost us 100 sing.

and here we go, the two man took turns to drive. its was 3 am when we set off.

and i din't dare to sleep cos, the two man are really scary drivers.

on the way, his friend keep asking me to go take a nap. thank god i did not, cos if i didn't warn him, he would have crash his car into a trailer and dear bf was sleeping behind. if we had crash, bf would go to god and asked, why did he die.

thank god, we reach genting safely. but the problem comes with lodging. the place we booked is like 30 mins drive away. but we were so-called lucky. we meet these guys outside first world, they sell hotel rooms- i would say illegally.

so we took a room for 320 rm. yes, what a price.

we reach the room and we were so afraid that we will be rob cos apparently they only give us one key and we believe that they have another.

so, in this picture, these two guys were trying to slot a 5rm into drawer at a remarkable position. they wanted to test if anyone comes into the room and ransack. if yes, the 5 rm will be shifted !!!!! and they were really so engross into it.

as usual, we went to casino. i shall not talk much abt that. i just got to say they were really hard core gamblers. they didnt sleep, didn't really eat. but its all worth it, cos they won a whole lot of rm back. the first time in my life that i see so many money !!!!

back to sg. it's was really a fun trip with all the hiccups . :))

silence is my loudest scream.

sometimes, i cannot stop but to feel pitiful for him.

i hope i got the courage to really say out what i want to say.

it's not that i hate his sister or what, but sometimes i just feel heartpain for him.

my dear worked so hard for the family, pay for everything, even for holidays trips. i mean, you see, how many of us do actually pay for trip for sib. for parents- yes, it is the right thing. and, if i can afford, yes i will pay for my siblings too, but that's only when my siblings deserved one.

what did the sister do at all ?

she work or dun work whenever she feel like it. she feel lousy, she dun go work.

yes, i know everyone likes to go back to visit their relative. yes, i will go visit my grandma when i am free, at my own expenses. and i see no wrong to bring parents to visit their cousin or whoever.

but his sister never sees it. she is very very happy to go back, even if a day earlier, but have she think for the brother. it's really tiring for him.

i don't what to say or what to do, i can just feel a stomach full of anger in me.

but i cannot do a thing to help him at all. and if i put on a angry face, he will say that i am showing temper. but the problem is, i dun want to utter a single word cos i can't say at all.

seriously, i want to be alone, or be home. but i just hope the other person can just take it as a peaceful separation.

it was a hectic and fulfilling week for me.

never imagined myself to tell people TGIF. i have been slacking so much that everyday just another friday. it seems like this week has been the longest week of mankind.

anyway, THANK GOD, i didn't sign for the full-pledge director wannabe.

i finally finish that montage of public bank today morning. it took me through hell of 3 entire days and yesterday i reach home at 9 plus ? gosh.

finally, it's friday. i can sleep late and wake up late.

a short post.

i survived my first day of internship.
did some marketing adv. while my senior told me to adjust the alignment for the freaking whole day.

i am quite happy to be in the job, cos i am finally doing something that i like.
i always like to DREAM to be a director, but well, reality hits hard, just like for Japan.
anyway, picking out from the least, i am supposed to do a montage for the co. i am working in now.

but guess what, i am having headache, the moment i stepped into the office. guess i am born a taitai life.

and anyway, can anyone tell me WHICH PART OF MY BORING BLOGS SAYS THAT I AM KELVN'S GF ? can anyone pls copy and paste to me which part of it mentioned that ?

remember i study script writing so, i like dream and fantasy about all things, sometimes i even fantasy that i am a angel. come on, i didn't pretend to be a holy angel baptism under the name of Jesus.

for Christ sake, stop slandering or create a libel against me when i ain't doing anything.
please please, go and be some miss universe and be chio bu of the year and stop all these getting me involved like in a situation that's of Quentin taratino.

i am like all others now, waiting for the weekend to come but i kinda like it cos i've really been slacking for some time. good luck - all interns in my co. we got 3 more months to complete the montage before the 15th anniversary comes.

through sickness and in heath.

yesterday, i witnessed the love of my parents. to be exact, my step-dad and my mum. well, i guess no matter what had happened to them in times, when they are not talking. but i believe in responsibility or in love or whatsoever,yesterday was a almost tearing situation. My mother went for a surgery yesterday, though was only a very minor surgery, my step-dad took a day off. and i was there (i don't stay with my parents now).

before my mum went into the OT, my dad pat on my mum, and ask her not to be worried. so, is this what we called VOWS that we have to take when we get married ? I, (name), take you, (name), to be my lawfully wedded (husband/wife), my constant friend, my faithful partner and my love from this day forward. In the presence of God, our family and friends, I offer you my solemn vow to be your faithful partner in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as we both shall live

well, how many of us, could actually mean it to heart when we take those vows ?
my natural dad separated with my mum when i was young, i supposed i have seen so many people divorcing here and there.


yesterday, many of you who are close to me, may received some calls from me.
well, that's exactly what i am going through.

we can promise everything out of nothing. i can say a thesis of promises, but i knew my action don't really tally with what i've said.

do people really change ?
ans: yes.

i do agree with myself, i feel i have changed. i feel that i can no longer keep those promise that i once vowed to keep.

i sat at the void deck for sometime yesterday. i use to keep the promise not to rant anything about contacting any other female subject. seriously, i don't mind, if you do tell me, but not until i find out.

you can say that i am a hypocrite or anything, but seriously, i felt like leaving. not because i am angry. it is because i don't like to snatch. i know it's funny.

if i know this person like this person, and this person like me or somewhat, i will rather give up.

never mind.
i thought i was a little to petty on this.so i decided to let the matter go.
and today, a friend of mine just told me that he is with a girl and this girl doesn't like him to be in contact with any girl. and as a friend, i look at it, great, i wouldn't do this to my bf.
reason being : i must have full confidence in myself and him. (TRUST).


anyway, LOOK ____________________________ this is my border line, so pls stop intruding into my privacy. if my boyfriends want you, or want to fuck any person on earth, i don't care, but i just suggest this girl dun step in my boundary.


BTW, humans, anyone knows how i can stop people from copying pictures from my blog ?

alright, as i was saying, my mum's surgery was at geneagles, and u know HOW expensive that place is, but this is the sign for their OT. so freaking budget. lol



and thank you everyone, who asked me how is my lump, actually not really a lump. it's just a pimple beneath my skin. if it's doesn't swell down, i have to cut it out.

i think i scared everyone out, lol. but still thank you !! i am not in any diseases.the lump is at my groin, soooooo..... naturally i was a bit freak out.
I still got to say thank you thank you. i didn't know so many people are concerned, unlike my bf says that cos i dun bath !!!!!! roll my eyes.



school-ed today.
go and watch women punches( in chinese) dvd with my bf now. damn nice show. TVB drama. go catch it.

forget-which-day is SHOPPING DAY.

baby fetched me from home and we went to ION. weeeee.

we went to massimo dutti, and i realized the clothes there are soooooo expensive.

and so, i switch to zara since the clothes are more of affordable.

THANK YOU BABY, SHOPPING FOR NO REASON.

The amount of clothes i bought in 2 days...

my sleeping clothes.

and decided to try out all my new clothes. haha.

and then now, i got really A LOT OF CLOTHES that are new. almost 20 over pcs, cos my hand itchy, i went to WISMA and buy somemore. SERIOUSLY. i swear i should really stop buying shoes,bags and clothes.

after ION, we went to watch sucker punch. director of watchmen and 300.

i told him that it wouldn't be nice cos watchmen is really a damn lousy show.

the director, Zack Snyde likes evolutionary concept in making movies.

it's not his concept is bad, but viewers need to think out of the box to get his illusionist idea.

so, turn out, expected as it is.

last week, i did

1. went to play mj with shuana and nelson, won 100 bucks. but shuana got some cock up so gotta stop.

2. watch the eagle with baby.

3. went out with ex- co worker for drinks.

4. sleep and slack and turning fat : )

that's all. i planning for aussie trip, but must get approval first.

Have you always wonder why I ALWAYS don't pick up calls?

That's because my phone is off to silent WITHOUT vibration.

Why?

Because my dear bf likes to see who message me or who call me or who bbm me
Or who msn me.

I am not saying that I have something to hide.

But sometimes some things is between friends.

I have ppl asking me to lend them money
I have people telling me to do this and that.
I have my mother who keeps telling me how she want this and that.
And I have guys who like to oei me on msn just to disturb.

So I have to off my phone to silent so to pretend no one contact me.

And of cos when you off your phone to silent mode too frequently, you will tend to
Forget to switch it back or I can even forget I have a phone, I have two phone actually.

But anyway, I am just a useless person who must learn a basic thing to pick up
Phone calls. Well. He just scream that at me in public.

Just what, I am just not someone who know how to seduce him during work.
Or pretend to be drunk and ask him to touch me.

Whatever it is I am just dumb loe.

Fml.

BTO.

Well, though, i do't really put 100 % hope on bf of his words. But on that faithful day, he asked me to check out the BTO launch on HDB.
Well, this what they are going to build right beside boys' home's empty field.

WELL, of cos we didn't get it. i really really really really x 100 dun like it at all.
i prefer full length windows. anyway, when i first saw it, it totally reminds me of River Valley High's hostel.

the only "good looking'" thing is that park.
haha

so we (i think he) dropped the idea. looking for another EC or condo (which i can get full length window, but i totally hate condo).






That day (sunday) went to shuana's birthday.
bf fetch me to town to get present and... on the way saw a rainbow.
seriously..... i really think that iphone's camera sucks leh !!




anyway, i got really high. cos they play this damn stupid game. and i am really bad at games. bf got REALLY pissed off. but he was stil sweet enuff to buy me supper and coax and take care of me cos i was feeling really super uneasy. The sour plum realllllyyyyy sucks.


my dinner for yesterday. i was really craving for sushi. and bf doesn't eat seafood so i order a takeaway.


i was eating my fav. snack and i realized, the chocolate is actually printed with diff images. i didn't know, for sooooo long..



alright, nothing much to update. staying home for routine till though i got some interships job as a business development management trainee. :)))))))))

getting bored.

oh my, i really feeling crazy over this holidays. i am stuck cos of the econs paper.
i don't want to work- cos i am too pamper. (hee hee)
and I SERIOUSLY SWEAR I GOT TOO MUCH (you use much when you cannot count) clothes and shoes and bag.

now, i dun even feel like going to town to shop cos my bf's closet WAS invaded by all my clothes and i cant find anymore space.

in additional, my friends are working, they can't go out in the noon and i can't go out in the night cos i need to wait for BF to come home else he will start techno for me.

i think, seriously i need to go find a part time job, cos i am damn goodness, too free.


imagine, i am a shopaholic and now, i am soooo free that i dun even wanna shop.

everyday, i sweep and clean his room, IS LIKE EVERYDAY, imagine how free i am.

damn fcuking sianed.
I failed my econs paper.

well well well, i was emo for a while. but still i went to watch movie with bf, World Invasion. damn nice show !!!!

anyway, Jess, i know you are reading, i am so going to let you all die on wednesday !!!

i went to appeal my results, which actually i know is bo hope one. But never mind i spend $50 for giving myself some say 1% of hope.

and bf was realllllllyyyyyyyy a ass. i was with him when checking my results. he was LAUGHING AT ME. cos i told him i dun want to study, i just wanna sleep !!! and he said my reaction was damn funny when i know i failed. i didn't expect myself to be calm too, you really got to be there, then you will know how hilarious i was.

waolao !!! ok lah, just retain another 3 months. my mother also another ass !!! she expected that i will fail. well.... i admit, i am not really the study type. i can only sales talk but empty shell !!!

and my DEAREST BF,consoled me by saying, "never mind loe.just stay at my house and sweep floor for another 3 months !!! " WTF !!!, my interpretation to this is : NEVER MIND LOE, SHIOK WHAT, STUDY TWICE A WEEK, SWEEP FLOOR AND GOT PPL TO FEED ME !!!"



Alrighty, i bought another bag again !!!!! (i know i am going to be killed very soon)
but i have been searching for this bag, damn long alr and FINALLY !!!!!!!!!!!!




meet the guys later for dinne
meeting the girls tml for overage clubbing,
and another 2 weeks till i retake my module! FCUK FCUK FCUK. !!!!!

something happened to my life again.
sometimes i just feel that if my life is written, it prolly can sell better than any novel, maybe better than JK Rowling.

but anyway, i've been through too much that, i am really tougher now.
just that i have to maybe cut down on my spending habits. (please, it's not that i am in debts or my mum's biz is going to be busted). Just that i have seen things that constantly wake me up on "saving for rainy days"

well, bf took me in with my mum's consent.
so my daily life : sleep,eat, clean the room, waiting for my dinner to be home. haha
but of cos, this is not going to stay forever.

anyway, the problem is so disturbing that i cannot sleep in the night. and even though Bf is with me most of the time, i just feel that i cannot tell him what i really feel. Basically, he is really nice enuff to take care of me, what else can i ask for.

i am quite amazed that i didn't break down and cry, practically, i urge to solve the problem than to dwell in it.



this is so expensive now, $2.00 ?? it use to be very cheap right ?



Went for movie (I am number Four) and before that went to Chef daniel kitchen. i saw Chef daniel on that particular day.

anyway, i really have to say the food there are really nice. Not becos its a celeb's restaurant,but i have never never never ate such a nice tenderloin before (SWEAR)
the price is not that ex too. so, go and try it.



make this for bf , and he finish everything, but i think was becos he was hungry.


girls came to my house for mj and pizza.
and wed going for a adventure with them.
that's all for life now.

well, i know i am writing this over and over again. but seems like this alarming to me.

indeed, i am a very emotional person. and i admit that this might be my only weakness.

i am like a ant jumping on the hot pan whenever i hear betrayal or any sort.

as a matter a fact i was a victim (comeon, dun say i am not cos, i am) and i can totally understand how it feels. my story is prevalent that you can find it in most hong kong drama.

anyway, put mine aside, i am really furious when i heard this very close friend of mine, actually want to fight the custody of the child when he has a affair (literally, going in and out of that hole and staying together).

maybe if you are reading this, you don't feel a thing cos it doesn't happen to you nor to anyone you know, but i seriously feel the pain. (okie, i am super KPO, so ? )

maybe, women are really a hag sometimes. but, ain't just that simple ? women just want to be rescue. sometimes, we might bristle at such a remark. but many us are just too independent and savvy to acknowledge this inner longing. We hope to evolve past any notions of having such longing. and we always think that this longing is rebut with the bitterness of reality-modern women can do it all by themselves.

So why does women want to be rescue ?

well, that's because they feel empty inside. to be honest, why do i need someone when i have so much to seek for?

recently, my bf just told me he feels that i don't love him as much as i do in the past.

that's very simple, i was once rescue, until i was betrayed. The man on the white horse turns into foe.

what's there to trust and love anymore ?

going back, many women, like eve, are deceived. We believe that the lie that the love we hunger for is found, masked behind the couture fashion and beautiful people is a life of searching and desperation. I have been there myself.

agree with me - the lure is clever but the promises always don't deliver.

and we have to face it, the deception comes only when you face the consequences.

So, my dear girl, even if you are not reading this, i just got to say. i really feel for you. i know i don't have kids. But i got a double betrayal - A man i used to love dearly, and a friend that i share everything with (well, even the man, LOL).

sometimes, i do wake up and cry because of what had happened, you can tell no one and no one wil understand, cos they will just tell you : You are Mad. But it's okie, you do only live for yourself. if i can do, i am sure you can too.

always look at the brighter side. now that i am staying with my bf, i go home every morning and it just too happy when i see that my green tea and ice cream is stock up especially for me. There is always a place called home. and as for you, you kids are always your home.

and i always believe people who destroy will be destroyed. if there is bitterness, happiness must be somewhere.

alright, here about myself.

i went to ION to get birthday present and.... in the end i bought the wedges. seriously, i cannot resist shoes man.

and my dearest gave me $300 ION vouchers , shall ask my cousin to go shopping with me !!!

experiencing the tai tai life.

well, i am on a no-way to go road.
school has ended, and this time, ended with no return.
which is kinda something i dragggggggggggggg to happen.

i am lazy to work. not that i am a bummer and likes to sponges on others (ok, actually i am)
sooo... i am waiting for my results now and i am slacking..............

yesterday, i stay at bf's place and he went to work, so i sleep till 12pm, watch DVD till he fetch me for dinner.
aw... life is that good now, doing nothing and waiting for love one for dinner.

anyway, a few days ago, we were thinking of getting a HDB actually not really, we were just talking about getting one since there is a BTO (build to order) coming up near to his place soon. the details i will not go into in. how true is true, doesn't matter, i also dunnoe, since he never mention a thing after that. lol

since i am sooooo free i google about my dream home.

you know, out of all, the best place is the wardrobe - girls' best friend. lol. but where to get so much space. i was like thinking my master bedroom must be two room combine into one, the other side can be the wardrobe. muhahahha. then..... i can showcase my shoes, even though i am show casing it now, in my store room.

will be overseas from 16th. :) gee.

Exclusive rights

what's exclusive rights in a relationship ?
i hope it's like a patent or a copyright.
which means it's only exclusive to me only.

it's like we share something that is between the both of us.
like hmm..... celebrating birthday and doing things that is only exclusive to US.

i can clearly remember things like, going to this particular places and i dun bring another person to go because it's only exclusive to that person.

going to my house's neighborhood and sharing the kway chap is exclusive cos i haven bought anyone there, and will not.

or say buying something for that someone.

telling me something that going to happen in your life is also exclusive to me. which means i am the only person who particularly know that.

but i guess in the society, it's hard to have exclusive rights. because we had some many other past relationship and things that are exclusive are not that exclusive anymore.

LIES.
well, i lie a lot, and lying is part of me. but major stuff, which are fatal, i do not lie.

Belittling.
COME ON, if anyone who knows, i dun really belittle anyone unless that person is damn worth it. and i always speak well of that person.

moral

seriously, i dun even know why i am blogging all this.
i saw things which i am supposed to see. something, its just too well if we can stop probing in some matter so to make yourself uneasy, but it is okie if you can just close one eye ?

Actually, I am suppose to study while wating for babe to skype.

but my hand was so ballsy to google on the trip that i am suppose to plan.

i really can't wait for final exam to be done and over.

am heading for a trip after exam. and before i start stepping into the dynamic but yet grouchy world of working, i am taking a month off (while drastically waiting for results, crossing my finger i will JUST PASS)

i wanted to go taiwan actually, cos ever since i want to go to taiwan , it never happen.

i have always complain like i been to korea, paris, dubai, china,aussie... bla bla bla, but i just couldn't leave my trail on taiwan... hmmm..

anyway, babe says a decent resort treat will do best, so i have abide to that.

decided on Koh samui. i researched quite a few places when planning a trip with previously-co, damien, but the plane landed in bkk (WHICH i been there for 10000 million times)

seriously, i have to say, i dun really like Bkk, cos it a land of cheap thrill but no deal. the things are cheap but it's doesn't last long.

so i googled on the hotels, until my mind went wow wow wow.

i pretty much decided on KC overwater villas. look at the pictures below, it's just too magnificent and blame on industrialised- singapore, you can't pretty much enjoyed a view nor to say build this kind of resort. Well, the only one you had it's prolly sentosa with a view + pretty much air pollution and oily, greasy sea.

Guess what, this is soooo damn cool, the pool is actually your own private pool and you can view it with the port hole. cooollllll... *landing myself there tmr, lets give shit to exam-grins.

anyway, the cost is like only 250 SGD per night, come on tell me it's way toooooo cheap. WITH PRIVATE POOL AND JACCUZI IN YOUR BATHROOM?????

let's pray hard that babe will agree on a 5 days 4 night trip!! *cross fingers, cross legs. if you need some recommendation, you can ask me n the hotels cos... i am really proud to say i am a expert in hotels.

am not going to disclose my trip-co. this time. well, please stop guessing and don't assume that my world only revolve one person. I really hate it, when people comes here to get information and malign others of stuff that is not happening. Rumors really travellllll right into my ears.

i repeated; my life do not revolve ard one particular person.

back to studies and suddenly i feel like sleeping. (9 chps of law, 12chps of Infomartion systems and 9 chp of econs to go) jiayou.